girl gamer diary
It's really a fairly gender-neutral gamer diary. Or, make your own mind up, I guess.
Dragon Age: Inquisition
Happy New Year :) Same old games... haha!
I'm just finishing up Jaws of Hakkon. It's fairly fun. Well until your adventuring RPG hero character can't scale a hill you a fat middle-aged DA fan could... The worst thing about this game is how accidentally hitting a bunny rabbit that decided to run into the midst of a battle means it's your forever enemy and you have to either hunt it down or just wait 5 whole minutes for it to despawn, just so you can save. It's the worst. I hate this game. Anyway, there's not loads left? I don't think? So I got home from the Winter Palace and I'm letting Alistair and Morrigan catch up whilst I'm doing DLCs and working my way through the awful war table wait times. It's a good plan right? I'm absolutely dreading having to meet the worst DA character ever in the next bit of the MQ. It's bad enough that they made DA2 in the first place. When I'm done with Inquisition I'm done with it and I can go back to beautiful precious Origins, a game where the fights actually require your attention and the characters aren't screaming out to be murdered (I hate so much that you can kill Leliana, send away Morrigan etc. but they lump you with that prick Varric who manages to be a significant part of what makes DA2 unplayable, which is really impressive considering the rest of it...)
I'm so angry about this game lmao! And it churns up my GPU like nothing else. Is that the securom bullshit or just I need to turn the graphics down... but I don't and won't lmao. The best thing this game has going for it is that it's pretty. Well, and Dorian... who is pretty, so...
Dragon Age: Inquisition, Theme Hospital
I finished JoH and mostly enjoyed it (apart from the map going shit and dark at the end... good job I did almost everything first), and played TD and... kinda enjoyed it? I really liked Valta and Renn so obviously they take them away from you lmao. The war table quest that wraps up their story is even more of a letdown somehow. Just give me back my cute goth dwarves. God, going back to Varric after them was painful! Why him and not Sigrun? (Obviously: prejudice against goths.)
Speaking of shitty war table: I've blasted through all the Mythal stuff and now I'm ready for the final final battle. (They really psych you out with "THIS is it!!!" and I've played all this before so I knew it wasn't but even so... totally fair and reasonable in a game that's 99% sidequests). Except I won't do it because I am on the last stage of my last war table quest and it's a grey warden one so I actually care. Each stage was about 30/40 mins. So this last one is 14 hours. 14 hours to wait until I can finish my game that I paid for, literally twice omg. I hate BW so fucking much. Also? Maybe I could fight Corypheus and it would keep ticking but I don't know and can't find a good answer. Infuriating!
This playthrough has been kinda fun 'cause I have had the double disapproval thing on. So they're not all constantly happy with me. And after commiting the dual crimes of taking the blight seriously and being an elf, Sera got her knickers in a twist and started accusing me of being evil and shitting on the little people. So I told her to fuck off or die which was really relieving actually! But: she's still in the horrible scrolling squad selection, just crossed out lmao? Please give me back the Origins posing and quipping. Oh, I can't wait to play Origins again after all this!
But everyone else looooves me. Oh, okay, Vivienne hates me lmao. I hope she doesn't end up Divine. And, I made Cole a spirit this time. I did human last time but I think I like this more! And this was years ago now but I decided to just skip Iron Bull rather than get Dorian dumped later. I never liked their relationship anyway (and I always hated IB himself and his qun spin doctor shit, as well as his repulsively tiny head!). But no, I refuse to let a ship of potential allies sink in favour of a handful of QUIRKY!!! sidecharacters!! so that's the BAD choice for BAD people ugh I hate this game I hate this game!
I had Theme Hospital on Origin - for free, along with a handful of other non-DA:I games - but it wouldn't run, even though it was installed. It wanted to install the new Origin thing but I can't be doing with one EA launcher on my pc, really. So I decided to grab it in the GOG sale for just over a quid, and installed it and played a bit just before I went to bed. So far the only thing I can say it misses compared to big bloaty stupidly-multiplayer TPH is pausing whilst being able to build, but with no camera angles and less decorative items, it's not such a big deal anyway. I forgot how this game was sponsored by kitkat lmao? Do you think they got money or just a steady supply?
I suppose I ought to feel annoyed at the sex-based jobs but... I don't! It's not meant to be that realistic. Also it's clearly an evil hospital in an evil healthcare system. I'd forgotten the intro movie and it's pretty funny. Also makes it more incredible that NHS bosses supposedly got furious at this attack on... what exactly lmao? (Well, it has the same kinds of standards and outcomes as the modern NHS, but they don't additionally slow things down with a credit card swipe, at least!)
Dragon Age: Inquisition
After nearly 9 years, I finished Dragon Age: Inquisition! Very close to 9: I bought it on the 17/01/15... bought it again as GOTY 25/11/16 apparently, to get the DLCs.
Trespasser was kinda fun? If I just totally black out what they did to heroic well fit Teagan. That was just a different character to me. You know, I'd heard about it, but I thought it would just kinda annoy me what they'd done to him... I literally couldn't recognise him as the same character!
I love Solas' Shakespeare-Hallelujah antics and I feel kinda sad I probably won't play the sequel! But also like it's for the best.
I'm also not sure if I actually did Doom Upon All The World last time I played to nearly the end? I don't know because it was so unmemorable. The end fight of Trespasser + the actual ending is much more exciting. And then, the slides are just incredibly awful, boring and ugly... well, whatever. Cassandra's impressions in the credits were fun though :)
I uninstalled it. Now I have 2 other Origin games to play: Sim City 2000 (SPECIAL EDITION!) and Syndicate. I don't know if I'll get round to them. Well, maybe, so I guess I'll leave them and Origin installed for now.
Theme Hospital, Dragon Age: Origins (kinda)
I was playing some more TH last night as well as today. I only just rediscovered the speed setting. Makes setting up the hospital before opening so much simpler :)
Since I finished Inquisition, I really want to play Origins again. That means uninstalling Steam version to install GOG version and setting up my mods again. Thing is... my mods are an absolute disgrace lmao! I'm still kinda frankensteining my initial forays into modding from 10 years ago. I need to get this folder nice and sensible. It's hell. I have three basically current folders to work with. Only one is actually named "current" so that's pretty impressive. I made early headway by deleting the very tidy and neat DA2 mods folder. I'm never playing that again! But god, I wish the DAO mods were so nicely laid out.
Starting from scratch is probably a good idea anyway when I'm sure my tastes have changed. For example, I'm so disatified with all the Morrigan robe mods - ones I've used and a handful of new ones - that I kinda wanna just go back to vanilla lmao. I think I can handle the 90s bikini, the flat giant pearls, but can I handle "how is that shoulder thing even attached??" I don't know. But most of the mod ones can't answer that either. It's the kind of mystery you expect from a Witch of the Wilds after all.
I'm gonna start with tmp's proportion fixes (elf, human, dwarf). Maybe my main reason for starting fresh 'cause I know they're in that mess but god knows where lmao. Once I've reinstalled, I can load up the toolset and check out all my morphs. I could never settle on a Leliana I liked, but I remember liking my most recent Morrigan, Zevran and Alistair :)
Dragon Age: Origins (kinda), Divinity: Original Sin 2 (kinda)
I finished setting my DAO mods up on the 7th but I never got round to playing. Maybe it was partially because I have some kind of fullscreen mouse bug - I have no cursor unless I mess with the mouse settings (literally just tick untick apply kinda stuff). This also affects Divinity: Original Sin 2, I just found out yesterday after starting it up. And not playing it... it looks shit... why did I not realise you're intended to play as one of their lame edgy premades. It looks so dull. I just wanted the same kind of fights as D:OS1. I don't know if I'll play it. I looked forwards to it for a long time but I wanted to finish D:OS1 first and I was playing that with my husband and it's not really his kind of game so it was slow. I paid £18 for it lmao ._. In 2019.
I don't know what I want to play! Maybe Kenshi, maybe last FO3 DLCs... I keep thinking about FNV and FO1 and DAO and TS3 and and and...! I am probably going to play TH too, but not for hours :) But when I think of it like that, I think I should focus on my writing instead!
Fallout: New Vegas (kinda)
I don't think I played anything on the 10th after that lmao. Or on the 11th. But I spent a few hours yesterday messing around with my FNV mods. I really want to start again lmao but I think I should finish the FO3 DLC first or I'll not get round to them. I got rid of a mod I never got round to using much, Titans of the New West - it looks great, but I only want it for the looks on NPCs, and it's just a bit much bearing that in mind (and it would fuck up things like changing companion heights, at that, so...). I also got rid of vurt's landscape mods. I'd been using the main one, the road/dirt textures too, and the grass mod. But now I'm just not sure. I have a new road texture I'm already fond of and these animated trees I've had for a while (but maybe overwrote with VFO when I was using it?) and... it looks fine and good? It's a bit more brown yeah but I guess what I really want is the grass mod with a lot less flowers. And not just turning down the grass types but a totally different approach that really favoured flowers in certain areas, for example, instead of being more moderate. But I don't want this enough to actually do it, and no-one else has done it, so I'll just live without!
Fallout 3, Fallout: New Vegas (kinda)
I finished Mothership Zeta either yesterday or the day before. It was fine? I got glitches towards the end of the main quest that nearly stopped me finishing it properly - glad I'd made a hard save not long before. Fallout: Star Trek is pretty fun at the end :)
Yesterday and today I've been making an FNV mod - for the Novac motel room. I try so many different ones and I always like this or that about this one but not the rest... the only thing I know for sure is I don't like it to change too much. I'm attached to the vanilla layout, maybe for fanfic reasons :) And I just want it to stay as a motel room! A motel room someone is living in, but it shouldn't have all the amenities. It especially shouldn't have a workbench. Who even uses the workbenches??? But if you really want to, there are 2 in Novac I'm pretty sure!
So I made my own version properly in the GECK for once instead of just messing around disabling and spawning furniture with console. It's on the mods page :)
Fallout 3, Icewind Dale
So, with FO3, I did the main world Broken Steel quests I'd skipped, and then I set off to do the Pitt. And found an annoying glitch if you'd found + freed the slaves before starting the DLC... I found a way around it. And kinda lost a lot of patience with the way it was set up. Long story short, I just started killing everyone lmao. I cheated Cross in there with me for Scourging The Pitt 2: Female Bonding Edition and she died really fast because she refused to get under cover when the raiders are on the walkways. I didn't mind because I brought her there to kill her lmao ._. I want her to die in my Marina story for drama. In the story it's going to be a little more heroic than that haha (I am thinking: storming uptown rather than doing the arena fights). There was a 2nd annoying glitch, where you meet the woman in her house and if you kill everyone it doesn't trigger the next bit properly lmao, luckily it fixed itself when I exhausted her dialogue options, going through the scene again and again :/
I don't see why it takes your stuff away when it flat out showers you in stuff, even if you're being totally violent about it. Well, I guess it's the benefits of being level 30.
After kidnapping a baby (and everyone acting like its parents weren't thoroughly dead??) it was time to go to my old nemesis, the thing that stopped my old playthrough in its tracks so long ago: Point Lookout. Impressions: either I am a lot better at Fallout (playing it and being less scared of it!) or the hard bit is still ahead of me. I think I've mopped up all the sidequests and now I'm just meeting Nadine. (I guess one thing that might be really helping, apart from alien weapons, Charon (who, yes, is also here to die :( :( :() is a mod I got to make them less bullet spongey. They still take half a dozen shots to the head a lot of 'em!)
Second impression: what is it with FO3/FO4 and the foggy seaside DLC where the fog is EVIL and makes you EVIL? Is this some kind of american holiday stereotype for some people? It seems like something teenagers hate and adults love maybe, so I guess the equivalent here is a caravan haha. They are so similar though, they even both have you finding a missing girl? I'd forgotten that detail.
I'm gonna finish that now, but otherwise, today I've been playing some more IWD. I really like it. And now I levelled up a bit, even my cleric/mage isn't totally squishy. Just mostly. :) But I still wonder, what is the game I used to play that I thought was this? Because this isn't it haha.
I did it! I finished FO3 for the first time. Charon didn't actually die but I'm still killing him in the story haha :)
Am I going to start FNV again? I just don't know! I kinda wanna make a Novac town mod. I also want to port some FO3 armour. I like one of the Pitt raider ones with a leather halter top and some nice boots :) And I'd like to use Tobar's jacket for a Boone outfit...
Icewind Dale, Rebel Galaxy Outlaw, Seedship (belated)
I'm progressing in Icewind Dale and progressing towards making dollies of my dollies and showing them to you. But it requires picking the right dollmaker to suit all 6 obvs.
So, today, after having had it installed for a while, I thought I'd give Rebel Galaxy Outlaw a spin. I wanted something simple and fun. And... this game is neither ._. So disappointing. The UI is fun and I like playing a girl but the story is annoying and the flying is worse!!! And they knew it, too - why they try to force fucking autopilot down your neck. The big thing I remember from Rebel Galaxy is ... piloting my fucking ship! And listening to the fun radio. But this is awful. You literally have to configure a key to fly the ship, that's how little they expect you to do it. And the 3d combat is not as fun as the 2d combat in the old game :/ I liked E:D (until I got bored of it) but this is just not as good as that. The first game, I heard it was made by just two blokes, and this is actually the game they wanted to make. But the constraints really suited them. Rebel Galaxy is a masterpiece!
My husband patiently listened my complaints and is trying to sell me on Star Citizen. It won't even work on my pc, but that's okay I guess 'cause it don't really work on anyone's :) The hunt for the perfect space game continues I guess!
I should plug Seedship which I was introduced to and enjoyed a fair amount last year but apparently never mentioned. It's free! It's not a flying game though. I just want to zoom zoom and pew pew. And it seems like I especially want to do this to the strains of rock cowboys growling about their sins.
West of Loathing, Rebel Galaxy
I started Rebel Galaxy again on Thursday. It's so much more enjoyable than the sequel, even comparing early game to early game... it's a shame! Anyway, I can still have fun replaying the first game.
But I was bored of spaceship antics, I guess, so I started West of Loathing. And I've been playing it until just now when I finished it :) The early game is sooooo fun. The mid game is also fun. The end game is not so good. But my frustration with some of the (glitchy!) back-and-forth doesn't diminish how fun the whole game is. I was just laughing the whole way (well, until the annoying last third, I guess?) I played as a cowpuncher or whatever the fighter is called exactly. I will play again with the other classes some time :)
I'm not sure what to play next... hmm... I keep thinking Underrail thoughts... but I should finish IWD first probably... or maybe being scifi and fantasy is enough to keep them separate?
Rebel Galaxy, Twilight Oracle, Dwarf Fortress
I kept playing Rebel Galaxy here and there. It's fun! I might play more today.
On the 2nd, I tried the Twilight Oracle demo, bought it and played it. It's really short. Pretty much the whole game is in the demo and trailer. It's not worth the price (and I bought it at 20% off), but maybe half the price, if you like these kinds of games. (It's super similar to my fave, Kyrandia 2: The Hand of Fate, which is maybe also why it disappointed me so much!)
And after that I went back to Dwarf Fortress. Every time I start a promising fort, something awful happens. In this case, I let some monster hunters in but then I wanted to get rid of most of them. But I can't expel one because he's "nobility" (1. he isn't 2. it's nothing to do with me if he is! he's a human!!) and I can't fix it even with dfhack. Obviously I could kill him, but I don't want to have to memoralise him, and I don't want to delete him, the man has children lmao. I also had stupid caravan get stuck in a tree, and I didn't notice until they'd left all their junk up there. The map is mostly mountains! They have really no excuse!
I started playing again, this time I tried the one arm desert start. Made it to Sho-Battai and was having fun stealing until I got caught. I kept trying to get free. Got good at lockpicking, a little tough, and even treated myself to training melee attack on their training dummy lmao. There was a nameless starving vagrant and an outlaw named Leaf who I was friends with, but when I got took by slavers, they were left behind... They took us to Stone Camp (very slowly) and I just kept getting beat up until nighttime, when I freed everyone in my barracks who wanted freeing. 6 of us escaped (we snuck past the gate guards?) and I had a party of 4: me, a shek named Maggie, a hiver named Bland and a man named Benjie. Maggie got eaten by a skimmer ;_; Now we're looking around the ravaged hamlets for ANYTHING (so far we found a big UC-HN skirmish...)
Benjie, least injured (most arms) went out from Bast to get food, got kinda HNed instead. Managed to play dead and crawl back. Now he had to stay in a bed to not bleed to death. Next it was my turn (didn't get skimmered, but nearly got UCed, but I got a bunch of rotten meat yay!!). So then I sent Bland (what a name) to the fishing village for medkits. They had NONE? But there were some dead cannibals nearby who had a few!
We eventually managed to all be healed up enough to hobble to the fishing village. When we got there, a fisherman gave me some cooked vegetables because he felt so sorry for me :)
We were happy there and just on the way out (following some skeletons because why not), a huge swarm of cannibals attacked... it looked like we would be okay, the fight was mostly won and I was still up, but just as I healed Benjie's worst wounds, Bland died! I guess I should have realised he was more tough, but they were both "dying" and he was closer, so... :(
We left for World's End and decided to pledge our allegiance to the Flotsam on the way. My slave status finally wore off just before we entered; Benjie's had worn off about 12 hours before (I have no idea why). That's when Bland's would have worn off, too, but he died with slave status :( I miss Bland, he was an excellent fish gathering hiver. But, well, we continued without him and did some kind of deadcat-flotsam-WE circuit twice until they finally had a left arm in stock (and we had enough money to buy it). So now I can finally pick Benjie up, which I celebrated by doing just that :)
I'm not sure what to do with Benjie! When I got this little squad my plan was only to let these chumps die as part of my Sad Backstory but I'm a little bit in love with Benjie. He's so tough, and I don't know why - my toughness is a fair whack (ha) higher than his - but I go down like a souffle and he just heals like wolverine. It's mental. I'm not sure where we should go/what we should do next. We are nowhere near strong enough for any kind of revenge... maybe bust some more slaves out of the stone camp? But we will probably just get taken again and I don't want to lose my arm!
I decided to get some spending money by having Benjie turn me in and then pick me up after I broke out. It's so dumb. It was fun though. We used that money partially to join the thieves, so now I have assassin training I've barely used. We went to the stone camp to cause trouble and didn't achive much more than getting a few slavers ate by skinners. Oh, and passing off one slaver as a slave lmao. But I guess that's something. On the way out to Bast to heal up, we died a few times so I reloaded... (once a nomad tried to heal me but it was too late!) And once I survived but Benjie didn't but I'm too attached now! So I tried until we both got out. Then I started researching in World's End. It's boring though. The game is boring when you're too well-equipped to want to lose your stuff/too attached to your squaddies to let them die. In the beginning it feels tough and hard and fun, later on you're actually powerful and can actually do fun things. But this part is so bleh and it's where I usually give up!